The end of grief? Four and a half years
Well, I really didn’t expect to be here again, but in May I had a weekend away with friends I went to school with and one of those friends mentioned that she felt my blog was incomplete / unfinished, as she felt my readers would want to know how I am now. To be fair, I understood where she was coming from – it is different now! So, apologies for leading you up the garden path yet again, but third time lucky, this will be my final post! I think I can safely say that I now feel a definite shift in how I am. I am lighter in mood and enjoying life again. I no longer have that feeling of meaninglessness and the pain of losing B has definitely faded. Generally, I just accept that he is no longer here, and I think about our marriage with gratitude and joy. The pain occasionally rears its head but when it does it is usually short-lived. Sometimes it’s regrets that pop up, and I don’t know why my brain still throws these out, but I try not to dwell on them as I know they are pointless. But a ‘b...